In a Word, "Weird"
Monday, August 30, 2010 at 9:00AM
This summer has been...weird. And I gotta be honest, I'm not really handling the weirdness as well as I'd like.
I've been trying pretend I’m tough, spunky, full of fire, vim, and vigor.
In reality, I have those days—just like anyone else—where I feel small, timid, worthless even.
Well, not worthless, I guess, but more like non-contributory. If that’s a word (it’s not).
Like, where’s my place? What’s my purpose? For what will I be remembered?
If there is a society for super-good nap-takers, I suppose I could be president.
This summer has made me wonder, when will I Goldilocks it and get it "just right?" I don’t necessarily believe in life-balance, but I’d like some sort of palatable asymmetry...something that’s purposely set askew, but still comfortable, pleasing.
Anyway, I hope to update you all on the weirdness soon! But in the meantime, what one word describes your summer?
Reader Comments (6)
Actually, non-contributory (or noncontributory) is a word in the insurance industry. I'll just leave it to your imagination, because the actuality of it is quite boring.
As one of those ultra-self-aware people, I have to really work at not analyzing everything to death. Life is life, you know? We only get one shot at it, so whatever's happening, that's your life. You're getting it right just by virtue of waking up every morning and continuing to breathe!
As John Lennon said: "Life is what happens while you're busy making other plans."
If you don't mind, I'll be the vice president. Considering I took a 3-hour nap today. Sight.
And for me, this summer has been...hot.
inspired
Starting with a writing retreat in June followed by a writing conference - it's been one long intense love affair with writing. Trying to finally go for it. But this means that I care more now - which makes fear of "failure" - whatever that looks like - and rejection much bigger.
Looking forward to hearing more about your summer. :)
Gratifying.
I worked creating and terminating guardianships for minors and mentally ill adults. It was good to go into the courthouse and see my work MEAN something.
a comfortable asymmetry sounds pretty damn good...
Ambivalent.
Yes, that's pretty much how it was: there were nerves and calm, both busy days and some swift holidays.... An occasion for both adventure and laziness. Hot and Cold. Sunny and Rainy... typical and yet new...